You know that Shakespearean admonition, ‘To thine own self be true’? It’s premised on the idea that ‘thine own self’ is something pretty good, being true to which is commendable. But what if ‘thine own self’ is not so good? What if it’s pretty bad? Would it be better, in that case, *not* to be true to thine own self?… See, that’s my situation
That’s another great quote from The Last Days of Disco. So, I pretty much think about this ALL THE TIME. First, what ARE our true selves, really? If we’re operating under the assumption that most things are socially constructed, is it even possible to be able to tell what isn’t? Does it matter? Do some things that are socially constructed become true? For example, physical adaptation to evironments to ensure survival of the species. Perhaps that’s reaching a bit when applied to human thought/culture/socialization, but like, in terms of your own desires– how do you know what parts of that are bullshit & what parts you should listen to? How can you be sure that what “feels good” is the “correct” thing to follow, or do? Conversely, how do you know when you should restrain yourself or not? Is being honest with yourself and acting upon it more often than not, a good thing?
If you look at it in terms of your own feelings & thoughts, I mean, it can’t possibly be that everything is either “true” or “false” to yourself, even if you do think that nearly everything is a social construction. Is it necessary that you “know” yourself before you can assess such things? Does anyone ever really “know” themselves? Is everyone just a big fat liar???? How can people possibly know or be so sure what are the “right” and “wrong” decisions? I mean, how can one even make huge, life-altering decisions? Is everyone just taking a bunch of risks & hoping it just turns out ok in the end? I mean, I do that sometimes. But for EVERYTHING?
I mean, I am all for listening to yourself, and I think that you should definitely NOT ignore the desires you have. I mean, acknowledge they are there and that is, regardless of where it originated, part of who you are, like it or not. But it’s just this piece with regards to then determining what this means in terms of action that I get stuck on.
Help, I’m drowning in my own bullshit.